This weekend there were queues of traffic at the Brynglas tunnels and Tesco had scrapped the oneway system. This week I can get a haircut and next week the pubs open.
Soon all this will hopefully be a distant memory – actually I hope certain parts remain.
I feel this has been an enforced brake being applied to our lifestyle and in that sudden stop there have been many good things I’ve rediscovered. When you stop – you have the opportunity to notice and appreciate the things around you.
It’s probably been the hardest three weeks of my life, mentally and emotionally exhausted. I’m not at the stage where I can really talk about what has gone on – even here. Maybe I never will and to be honest I’d happily let it all fade into distant memory.
But what I can talk about is how I’ve surprised myself in dealing with it all.
I’ve always had a vindictive side to my character, when things aren’t going my way I can argue my way around most objections – I’ve always considered it a skill but often it’s actually been a hindrance. And that side of my character has dominated a lot of personal interactions over the years, combined with a need to be right and be acknowledged as being right.
So chuck into that mix hurt,pain and betrayal… and it all could have been a combustive mix.
Instead I’ve viewed events with a strange rational calm and focus on putting things right. Yes there have been days of melancholy and sadness but these have been outweighed by a recapturing of fun and happiness in the house.
I don’t know where this all leads but it’s made me realise how far I’ve come in my journey with him. It’s been a long path changing those bits about myself I’ve never been happy about. A long path shifting my focus from my needs and wants to those who I care about, less material more meaningful. A long path getting closer to the one who has always been there in my life.
2020 was meant to be the year I completed the first part of my Christian journey – and I never dreamed that so much would be thrown my way, so many challenges and tests of faith.
Yet here I am.
…and through this I have had a kindred soul a guide and friend keeping me on the path.
Again I’m not sure how to talk about all that or it’s meaning in my life at this stage. Maybe I’m scared of committing to writing half formed thoughts and feelings – maybe confusion still clouds my forward view.
Still here I am…
The song was shared with me the day after the second big shock…shared on the prompting of the holy spirit by someone who had no idea what had just gone on in my life…
My fave photo of the last 3 weeks – Isaac’s birthday with his cousins
This weeks seems to be one of bumping into people while out walking. Yesterday it was Rhian and Mike, today my aunt Hillary and my cousin Gavin’s family. It was nice to catch-up.
So today’s walk took us to Beechwood park to meet up with my sister. Her girls wanted to see the stone snake that has been growing over lock down. Isaac had a bad day yesterday so it was nice for him to play with the girls and get some sunshine at the same time. He’s been struggling with being on his own when I’m on calls – which isn’t often but to him it feels significant. But we’ve talked about it and chatted through what he can do when he feels like that – the best thing being to come and talk about it.
It’s tricky… lock down parenting…
Hopefully he’ll go back to school for a few days before the summer holidays.
Covid Symptom Check…
Isaac still has a stinking cold but no temperature
Although things are starting to open up I think it’s still a long way to go…
Today the news was full of people queuing for the newly open shops… massive long queues for Primark of all places!
The thing that I’m curious about it how, despite all the easing of restrictions and mass gatherings, the R rate hasn’t rocketed. I wonder if there is a milder version also in circulation. But there seems to be early signs of another spike happening in China – much that you can’t trust the figures too much, and South America is ramping up.
With all the differences in how numbers are recorded it”l be interesting to look back in a few years and see the real impact – and which types of government fared better than others.
Africa is still a big worry.
Anyway today we walked up to 14 Locks and back… a nice long jaunt…
I don’t think I’ll ever adjust to the way queues look at the moment.
You drive past a shop and see a trailing queue outside and something just triggers not to bother trying to get in. In reality the que is probably 10 mins long…but the sight always makes me think I can’t be arsed waiting for an hour.
So today was a hectic one in work. That’s the problem with having time off, it all needs to be caught up on. And having to stop halfway through the day just makes it hard to get everything done – especially when people naturally arrange meetings for the afternoon.
First world problems.
Highlight of the day was my parents joining us for a ‘legal’ socially distant walk. It was good and we ended up walking up on the Ridgeway, which I thought would be too much for them – but it was fine 🙂
It comes to something where I have a day off work and do nothing other than clean the house…. that’s how bad this lockdown is getting.
That’s a slight exaggeration – my new found domesticatedness started just before lockdown but it has certainly been cemented as a habit. I tend to now sort things when I spot they need doing instead of leaving them to another time. It has helped massively on the domestic front and has helped keep all those petty housework arguments to a minimum.
So today has been a day of tiding the kitchen and giving it a good deep clean. In between that my parents dropped some shopping off from Cristyn and we arranged to go for a socially responsible, regulation distance, walk over Beechwood park later in the week. I’m hoping that on Friday the Welsh government start relaxing the rules slightly – certainly I’m hoping to be able to drive somewhere else for a walk.
There are many things keeping us going over the long lock down – not just debating the actions of politicians and their special advisers. Films and box-sets have been great….some new finds, some old classics.
So for today’s post here are the top ones for the past 10 weeks.